So I caved and I got the Deresute limited SSR pack. It’s not of any of my best girls like you’d expect, no Kaleidosnow Mio Honda, one of last year’s limited Christmas SSRs. Normally I’d have gone with someone else, but she has a story to her. Last year, I got her in a solo pull. I was in the airport headed back home to Mass for my birthday and Thanksgiving and all, and actually she came home about 5 minutes before I had to board. Weird shit huh. But, the whole time I was home I remember grinding events with that card in particular, and for some reason having it made me elated. It brought back good memories every time I saw her, really a sort of time capsule for a good time in my life. Since I was gone from home for 2 years now, it was a way for me to remember my roots in a positive way. I lost the account she was on. I gave up for a while… A few months, maybe? I just didn’t see a point, the time (and not to mention money, dear lord) I spent on it to just restart. It was miserable, I’m not gonna lie. I was in denial to lose my account of 2 years. And yet, I bought another account off of a friend. December last year I did. She wasn’t on there, I didn’t have a way to get her since she comes around for a few days a year in November/December. I had to wait, and probably not get her anyways. That is, until Deresute pulls a pack out where you can choose ANY SSR (except the cursed onsen set) whether limited or not, and get a deal with it. I wrestled mentally for a long, long time with this. Around 3 weeks. And since it all ended October 1st… I took the plunge and got her. I figured working at the convention without treating myself is pretty much a crime against my mental health. Sure it may seem dumb to people who aren’t invested in these types of games, “it’s just a jpg of an anime girl, it’s just a 3D model, etc etc” but. For me I get so sentimentally attached to things like that and anime figures that I felt it would help lift my spirits. And it did. I’m glad she came home. It feels like a burden was lifted from me, the awful experience of losing an account like that that has so many memories. And I can now finally feel 90% whole again (until Syoko comes home come on girl) This was long and sappy but yeah, thanks Deresute. You may rob me but now I have a lot of happiness back from something as mundane as that.