kawaiiboku
Today was the day I realised how fickle my faith was. I lost hope. To my friend I said, "There will never be another Sachiko card". After all, she had disappeared from Deremas activities for so long - no concerts, no CDs, no art. Sure, there's a new figure coming out. But how long was that in production? How would I know this would be a sign? Alas, hindsight is a useful tool but useless when used to lament. When I opened the game this morning, I was very tired. I checked the gacha because I knew it refreshed today with limited cards. Immediately, my tiredness was thrown off with the revelation that there was. A. New. Sachiko. Card. And it was limited. My first roll this morning gave me the Mika SSR. I like Mika, don't get me wrong, but inside I felt an unparalleled sense of dread. My luck was gone. Anya a couple of days ago and now Mika? I was finished. Yet on the outside I kept positive. After all, probability was on my side. "Luck" is objective. Even so, when I came to my phone later that evening I was not positive. £74 was quickly spent and my heart was racing. First roll brought two SRs. Second roll brought... SR Nao. Therefore... no Sachiko. The gacha is a bitch. We all know that. But inside I know that I didn't get Sachiko because I lost my faith. I shouldn't have rolled for Anya. One more roll could've been it. It will torment me forever. Sachiko is serious business. Never give up on your idols. Keep the faith. Always.
